Every time I saw his name or heard his voice I feel happy. He makes me crazy. I know I’m not the only one who feels like this. I know there are other girls who also feel what I feel. Honestly, I’m a bit jealous, but it’s ok. He’s an actor so I can’t avoid such things like this. I really don’t know why my feelings for him get extremely. I really don’t know why I like him or should I say I love him!? What does he have that other guys don’t have??? I always imagine of him, and thinking of him makes me relieve, makes me feel better and glad.

 I first saw Pi on his drama “Stand up” with Oguri Shun. Before I like Oguri Shun so I watched all his drama, but thanks to him I saw yamapi… Start from that, I get interested with Pi-chan. I started to watch all his dramas and movies and started to learn Japanese. Until my feelings explode and started to dream of him. Now, I can’t help myself to think of him. It’s hard to pretend that I don’t love him coz’ I can, I really do love him. My feeling burst out, it’s go off.

I envy those people around him, at least they can see and talk to him, and that’s what I’m dreaming of. I feel lucky to his parents to have a handsome and talented son, also his sister for having a popular oniisan. I envy all his friends to have pi in their lives. I envy all of them, because that’s what I want to do. I wanna see him, but when it is gonna happen? I want to meet him but I know it is impossible to happen. Everything for us is impossible to happen. I also can’t go to Japan coz’ I don’t have any relatives there and no money to go there. But then, I’m still hoping that someday, everything I was thinking will going to happen.

I love him that’s why I’m so desperate to know if he has a special someone on his heart. But then, I’m a bit sad when I heard the news about my pi and that slut girl Abiru Yuu. It makes me suck. That fucking bitchy girl in town, I hate her. Frankly speaking, Yamapi don’t deserve that kind of girl. She’s not respectable and not fit for my pi. To be honest, I cried. Yes, I cried. It sounds exaggerated but it’s true. That’s how I love yamapi. It’s so hard to get over with this issue. But still, I’m hoping that it is just a rumor and nothing else. If ever that he has a special someone at least not this girl.

I hope yamapi read this. I hope he reads all our comments. At least this can reach him, though not me or us at least our comments can reach him. I’m so anxious to like him. Yamapi is the one I’m dreaming of. Yamapi is my life….

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